Okay, I just found out the very name of the learning disorder that resonates with my condition

That’s me alright, shit
I had always known that there was something wrong with me, something I had had a hard time putting a name on. Apparently, I have auditory processing disorder. That is me to the bone. The bane of my existance
I had always been this child who can’t sit still in the classroom, listening to lecturers drone on. During my high school, I read comic books as I tried to listen to the classes. I was and am disorganized, it isn’t a surprise that I got into troubles with authority figure a lot
Even during my university year, I don’t listen at classes, I prefer to study by myself rather than processing the verbal information which I have a hard time processing as instantly as others. I am not a good listeners either in class setting or outside of it. And it shows
I put a lot of effort into processing the information that I hear thus formulating a response become a side chore. No wonder, I am not a good human. Sigh
And then, I had a really tough time remembering what I heard. My brain is a shitty mess. Thinking is too much of a hassle
Really, I wish I was born as a cat or anything else but human. I’m 7% of the humanity. The outlier. I am not stupid or anything, but this disability has become a big deal of a handicap. It is hard to fully develop my potential when I can just forget the names or shit I just heard
What’s worst, it is not like that I forget. I just didn’t fking listen. Ffs. The basic-est skill of a human being, has always been a huge chore for me. Why living is this much of a pain
Anw I’m a bit relieved by this revealation. I didn’t know, now I know. Might make some appointment with a therapy and get help. Sigh. I wish I was normal
I suck at being a human.
People won’t believe that I’m struggling with a learning disorder though. I always topped the class at school and nowadays I have pretty decent achievements in academic at university.
They think that I am smart. But I am not
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Now Suniti was the daughter of a tribal chief while Suruchi was the daughter of a rich king. Hence Suruchi was always favored the most by Raja while Suniti was ignored. But while Suniti was gentle & kind hearted by nature Suruchi was venomous inside.
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One day when Dhruva was just 5 years old he went on to sit on his father's lap. Suruchi, the jealous queen, got enraged and shoved him away from Raja as she never wanted Raja to shower Dhruva with his fatherly affection.


Dhruva protested questioning his step mother "why can't i sit on my own father's lap?" A furious Suruchi berated him saying "only God can allow him that privilege. Go ask him"